Y’all, I had an actual panic attack last night. Not normal for me. It wasn’t even about anything important—I was gaming online, doing too many new things at once, and melted down. It was bad enough that my brain crashed. That I ran from my computer and abandoned my friends. That I cried over something …
Author: Ellie
Don’t Martha it up
I can’t be the only one whose brain is too full. There’s just so much to think about right now. (You know—a list will just make us both anxious.) Weirdly, I feel like I have less bandwidth, time, and energy than I did before COVID despite being home more and having fewer responsibilities. My mind is …
Watch your mouth
What’s coming out of your mouth today? Obviously, right now we’re all super into washing our hands (anyone else’s hurt?) and minding how we cough/sneeze (dabbing is cool again!), but those aren’t the only contagion vectors we should be concerned about. Think about it. When you cough or sneeze, you make a choice. Do I …
Your father is right here with you
When I was 28, I had a massive hip surgery. I’d never had a wisdom tooth pulled and was utterly terrified. The day of the procedure, I was dull and numb and the world moved in unreal slow motion. Thankfully, Mom was there. There I was, a grown woman, clinging to my mother as …
Social distancing, not spiritual distancing
It seems bleak right now, doesn’t it? Schools closed.Events cancelled.States of emergency. The news addiction is real, too. I’ve been on Facebook more in the last 24 hours than the last 24 days, watching reports—both official and anecdotal—roll in with increasing anxiety. It’s not the virus I’m concerned about. Yes, coronavirus is nasty. But people can …
Fruit whackin’
Have you noticed how when you ask God to give you more of some good character trait that you almost immediately run out of it? There’s nothing quite like praying for patience to conjure a traffic jam, for example. Ever wonder why? Personally, I always assumed it’s because if we want a new skill, we …
Labelled with love
What’s stopping you from achieving your dreams? What gets in the way as you step into your calling? It can be timing or money or training or logistics.It can be lack of support or clarity or direction. But let’s be honest. Usually, it’s YOU. Or rather, the lies you believe about yourself. Through struggle and …
We’re all addicted to something
Last Sunday, I was that person sobbing in their car. I stopped at the light by my house and saw a young guy wearing a T-shirt and no coat in -4C air coming down the sidewalk. As he passed by, I noticed the white bracelet on his wrist and realized he’d just been discharged from …
Power isn’t what makes you special
There’s a lot made of reclaiming your power these days. And that’s well and good. We DO have intrinsic power, and we DO have a responsibility to own it and use it wisely. But power isn’t what makes you special. All God’s creatures have a measure of power. Even Satan! Just ask Job. What makes …
Wounds for grace
Ever wonder why whacking your head bleeds so much worse than, say, a papercut? (Although I’d argue the papercut hurts more. What IS that?) That’s because there are way more blood vessels in your head than your hand. Blood is a cleansing and protecting agent, and when you damage a vital spot, it bleeds more …
Even if you’ve lost your way, The Way hasn’t lost you
If I’ve ever driven you somewhere, we’ve gotten lost. Well. I wouldn’t say “lost.” Never, you know, lost-lost. More like took the scenic route. Had an adventure. A side-quest. I just get caught up talking! Roads and stop signs are so boring, and our connection is so interesting. I see that other stuff all the …