I can’t be the only one whose brain is too full. There’s just so much to think about right now. (You know—a list will just make us both anxious.)
Weirdly, I feel like I have less bandwidth, time, and energy than I did before COVID despite being home more and having fewer responsibilities. My mind is pinging from idea to idea, from task to task, from fear to fear. I’m constantly cleaning or washing or preparing. I collapse into bed at night wrung out from DOING all day.
When I get like this, a neat little refrain comes to mind:⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
“Don’t Martha it up.”
It’s the Holy Spirit’s reminder that—just like Martha being so busy preparing for Jesus that she missed BEING with Jesus—DOING isn’t the point.
Yes, it’s good to clean the house and stock up and have a plan.
But it’s NOT good to get so obsessed preparing to care for my family that I miss being with them.
Or to waste this precious, unusual time I have to be in the presence of God the way I long to be, instead of being pulled away and distracted by activities and errands and meetings.
So today, I’m choosing Mary’s way. To sit my fizzing brain down (multiple times a day if I have to) and just BE with him. Without an agenda, without requests, without fear.
Because that’s the posture of true readiness, where peace is truly found: at Jesus’ feet.
“Martha, my beloved Martha. Why are you upset and troubled, pulled away by all these many distractions? Are they really that important? Mary has discovered the one thing most important by choosing to sit at my feet. She is undistracted, and I won’t take this privilege from her.” [Luke 10:41-42 TPT]