Wonder

For my big-little girl on her 4th birthday

You don’t fit on my lap anymore.⁣I can barely carry you.⁣Not that you’re ever still enough for either. You are a giant.⁣Taller than your older friends,⁣mountainous in your anger,⁣a cathedral of words and laughter.⁣ You walk on tiptoe everywhere,⁣Your dance more irritated bumblebee than prima ballerina.⁣ You have a favorite version of the Bible,⁣But you …

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Open prayer journal on desk
Christian Life

Letters to and from God

This is me. This is how I pray. It’s how I prayed for two years, actually. Scurrying to the secret place and writing longhand every morning through intense soul-pain, repressed emotions, and life changes, tears of rage and gratitude dried in the margins. I stopped last December after a major revelation brought closure to issues …

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When we don't know what to pray, the Holy Spirit rises up in us.
Christian Life

Hum if you don’t know the words

What do you do when the words don’t come? When your heart is burdened and breaking and you close your eyes to pray but nothing comes out?⁣ What then?⁣ Anything.⁣ Scream.⁣Cry.⁣Babble.⁣Laugh.⁣Breathe.⁣ Sing.⁣Dance.⁣Build.⁣Paint.⁣Write.⁣ Prayer isn’t about the words you say just like worship isn’t about carrying a tune. Your entire life can be worship; your entire …

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“To what will you look for help if you will not look to that which is stronger than yourself?” ― C.S. Lewis⁣
Christian Life

I need an adult

As the news escalates, a previously-rare thought is surfacing more: I don’t want to be the grownup. ⁣ I don’t know what I’m doing!⁣ I don’t know if it’s time to wear masks to the store or for my husband to shower when he gets home. I don’t know how to explain that the mall, …

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