When there’s nothing in the tank, there is more
Tag: feelings
Hope Walks
The world is scary right now, but we can choose to hope anyway.
Lift, release, recover: Building strength with God
Building strength isn’t just about the lift.
State of Wonder: One year later
104 things I want to tell you about my year of covid but probably never will
Fresh out
It’s tough to feel anything but dried up these days. Poetry helps. So does reading the Word. (One more than the other.)
2020 Review: The Year of Shema
I approached my year-end reflection with a sense of failure and shame. But I wonder if I didn’t shema better than I thought.
A sacrifice of thanks
REAL TALK: I am not feeling terribly thankful today.I know, my privilege is showing. Bear with me.I’m an expat. I moved to Canada in 2006 and am wildly happy here, but I always make a holiday pilgrimage back to Missouri. It’s a tradition of nostalgia and belonging that recenters me in my family of origin. …
He calls me good
Will I disappoint you? Almost guaranteed.
Will I disappoint God? Never.
Would Jesus talk about you the way you talk about you?
CHECK IN: What’s your self-talk like these days? I bet it’s way worse than usual. Mine sure is. Here’s just a sample of the names I’ve called myself in the past couple days. LoserFailureLazyBullySelfishHoarderUnfit parent I’ve also repeatedly “reassured” myself with thoughts like, “It’s okay that your body isn’t young anymore. You were never pretty …
I need an adult
As the news escalates, a previously-rare thought is surfacing more: I don’t want to be the grownup. I don’t know what I’m doing! I don’t know if it’s time to wear masks to the store or for my husband to shower when he gets home. I don’t know how to explain that the mall, …
Begin again: a new marriage
At long last, the story of our 10-year vow renewal. A resurrection story told in vows, photos, scripture, and song.
The State of the Ellie: October 2019
Waiting on immigration (still), the Long Walk, werewolf toddler, body squish, and the lightning round.